Finding the secrets that everyone holds

A true friend stabs you in the front - Oscar Wilde

Blurted at 21:09 | Chain and tie me | comments anyone?

Of gossips, marriages, and libraries

I'm sick of this "he said, she said" shit. Can I just get the whole story from someone? Just talk to me. Then I know what the hell is going on, so it doesn't go to shit like last time. I didn't know. Really, I had no idea.

Well there's a new revelation in my family search. After 5 hours sifting through electoral roll microfiches wizzing by my eyes... I'm no closer to finding my step-siblings. I tracked my birth mother's address over 20 years, and only realised once I got home that she has been married again recently, and the married name I thought was her first husband, is her married name to this current marriage. Which means I don't know the kids surname to look them up. And I can't get info about her previous marriages, because it was before my birth. Damn.

Blurted at 13:59 | Chain and tie me | comments anyone?
updates, emotional crap

Not talking about not talking about it

I don't understand what's going on. Are you angry? Disappointed? Hurting?

Do you have a point to prove or are you trying to get a particular reaction out of me? I don't know what to do. Nothing I do seems to get through to you, but I guess the reins don't lie with me. God, that's frustrating.

I've got so much other stuff on my plate right now, I can't take this too. You would've been shattered had I done the same to you. I just want a reason.

I'm angry, I'm grieving, I'm at my wit's end. I hope the apathy is worth it.

I still care.

Blurted at 20:49 | Chain and tie me | comments anyone?
craziness, emotional crap

Fuuuuck. Searching the electoral rolls may not be an easy task after all. Dammit. Plus they haven't printed every single year anymore... well at least not at the Queensland libraries. I'd have to go to Canberra to find it. Shite.

I missed a deadline today. I don't care... so over uni. That's bad right? I've got other stuff on my mind right now without worrying about a silly non-assessable piece.

Taekwondo is another lost  cause I think. I just don't have the energy to care about learning a new pattern, and passing another grading so soon.

Fun fun apathy.

Blurted at 12:55 | Chain and tie me | comments anyone?

Well, it turns out Form 25 isn't as magical as I had hoped... so off to the library with me, to search through the electoral rolls. Let's just hope the threesome were living at home at 18... and no one moved interstate. That would be humungous ass.

Heading to the doctor tomorrow with a sore wrist. Bloody heavy blinds plus my silly way of handling them has ended with my spraining the thing. I'll be wearing a dorky wrist brace for a while if I'm right.

And after the easter break, I still haven't done ANY of the study I promised I'd do.

On the upside, back into Taekwondo. I did a grading the other night, and although I have a lot to work on (four years of little practice, plus whatever practice I did do was probably pretty sloppy. Yay for bad-habit breaking)....

I got my blue belt! WOO!


Still in a little bit of a mood funk, but my girlfriend is the best thing since the toaster, and despite all the crap recently (and all the stuff of past) we are becoming so much closer. Getting back into our old D&Ms, and the way we used to chat for hours and hours on life and people and theories... It's just so... refreshing.

Ciao

Blurted at 00:10 | Chain and tie me | comments anyone?