Finding the secrets that everyone holds

Well all I know is that this is what I want... in a vague and general sense. We're putting off sorting through it, but I'm happy. Is that bad?

And I'm ending anything else. I'm so not ready... everyone that shows even a flicker of interest is suddenly not so appealing.

Blurted at 20:26 | Chain and tie me | comments anyone?

Well, I have realised a few things.

I am stupid for women. I can't help it. It's how I am.

When I go out by myself, I make heaps of new friends. One group of women have befriended me enough to invite me to a party at their place this Saturday. They're a bit older, but intelligent, cool, fun-loving bunch, who are mostly in couples, and they are gorgeous, dammit. So I'm up for a perv and a laugh.

I enjoy myself when I go clubbing and dance. I feel self-conscious when I dance alone, but I enjoy the music and get rid of stress if I immerse myself in it.

I like people-watching... but not alone, because then I start feeling like an outsider.

Anyway, I'm still in love with Ena, so we'll see how the world spins now, because I can't let it go, and I don't know that I can admit that to someone I'm trying to date.

Blurted at 21:32 | Chain and tie me | comments anyone?
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