Dark and sinister... quite cosy once you're used to it...

Song: (Gunning Down Romance- Savage Garden)


Well it finally hit me last night. This sucks!! But I snapped because of the many many assignments that I promised myself I would work hard on and presentations that I would practice a few times before doing. And yet, I sat at the computer and stared blankly at the screen for the past few days, subconscious chugging through other things in the back of my mind. I have no motivation to study a Kanji test I have in oh, 20 mins. I have barely looked at the kanji I'm supposed to know, and despite promising that I would do better than my last test (11.5/20), I profoundly don't care. I couldn't give 2 flying fucks about uni at the moment. I'm licking my wounds dammit.


So basically, yesterday I did a presentation which concluded with 2 pages of criticisms from the lecturer, an annotated bibliography which I basically made up, and the lecturer being who she is, would probably have read the articles I'm talking about, and will call my bluff/bullshit 'summary' of the content. Then next class, I had volunteered to do a part of the presenting of our videos that we made for a project. Because I was rushing around doing my slides and bibliography at the last minute for the class beforehand, I had prepared NOTHING.

THIS SUCKS!

Blurted at 09:44 | Chain and tie me | comments anyone?
emotional crap

Things have just been too turbulent to make sense of them here, so I avoided writing. I guess that's a bad sign, because when I get writer's block, it means I'm avoiding realising something.

Ena and I broke up last night. It was mutual, but a fucking hard lesson to learn. We both still love each other, but we were starting to fall apart. We'd hurt each other too much, and the love was receding. It still hurts that we couldn't work it out, but maybe down the track, when we become settled as friends, it might come back.
The pessimist in me says 'not a chance'. But I hope for the better. Damn her and her optimistic tendencies. She has changed my life so much.

I don't know what will happen in Vanuatu.


Anyway, I have several assignments I should be doing for tomorrow. But I can't be fucked, honestly. *sighs* I just hope this annoying emotional thing will pass. I'm so over being sad.

Blurted at 15:15 | Chain and tie me | comments anyone?
updates, emotional crap