Dark and sinister... quite cosy once you're used to it...

Weeeellll im thru the week and apart from english class its been all gewd.... WHY THE HELL DO WE DO DEPRESSING BOOKS IN YR 12 OF ALL YEARS?????????????????????? The fucking Bell Jar....i could murder that damn book, i mean its not like we don't have enough stress in yr 12, and ... well maybe I'm the only one depressed recently.... but its like "How to get depressed and kill yourself in three easy steps" .... jeez that suicide scene was too much man.... any other time it would have been fine... but just after Morley finished discussing this model student who had suddenly gone haywire, lost her identity and then carefully planned her own suicide.... well shit me if that doesn't effect ppl at least a lil bit but i certainly didn't have the stability to deal with that damn Esther and her fucked up life and her tryin to kill herself, right at that very point in time

fuck it if i can deal with that with a straight face and strong will, when i can see my own face plastered on that girls image, and doing what she did... well not suicide, but in tute group the other day Dr Davey said to me "your an angel" and i scoffed and just about died laughin, but if im a supposed 'model student' *cough bullshit cough* then whats stopping that happenin to me???

Well apart from the fact I'd never let myself shave all my hair off *shudders* I doubt i would let my self-respect that far down.... I don't think I would be able to go that far.... I'd deal with it somehow before it ever came to that... Well i hope i would....

neways other than that stupid thing its been all good

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ah well thankee for ur responses... those who have :S and im feeling a lot better... i mean who wouldn't? today is all gewd... its the start of the school week yes but i got my year 12 jumper YAY!!!!!!! :D and mr smith (eco teacher) isn't here for first lesson... so today has started out great.... whether it ends up that way is a diff story....

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Don't ask me how i am.... i have no idea.... i wish i knew

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Ok, ppl i no i have been acting really really strangely lately, but i can't help it, and i didn't think ppl noticed neway...

So tell me what u have noticed, and ill try fix it... but i dunno, i doubt i know why i did half the stuff i did.... just tell me

why is it that everytime i have my feet firmly planted on the ground, the rug is pulled out from under me....

Why does nature always have to tip the balance.... grrrr :S

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Ah why do i bother?

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